New Year, New You...

My due date for Bethany is right around the corner. January 3rd. Seems no one remembers this except for me. But, that's okay. It's strange... while I feel that everyone should be remembering me and my significant dates, I think it's helping me to grow by realizing the world truly doesn't revolve around me. If all I think about is me, me, me - when do I have time to think about anyone else? I think that's why Christmas went so well for me. I was not focusing on my worries and my circumstances (or lack thereof). I was focusing on making sure I was getting the right gifts for everyone and making sure I shipped my long distance gifts and Christmas cards on time. I was focusing on making great food for the Christmas parties that I was attending. I was focused on the bake auction at work and making it successful. With all of this on my mind, I didn't really stop to feel sorry for myself and that makes me so thankful.

And now, instead of focusing on the fact that January 3rd is just another day instead of my due date, I will focus on my resolutions and actually keeping them this year. I want to get pregnant again - that's for sure. But, it's not going to be a resolution. It's going to be God-willing. Oh sure, we will "try", but we can only be successful if it is God's will and I understand that.

My resolutions for 2011 are...

• I plan to start attending church on a weekly basis. This is so important. Dave and I need to put God first and make time and room for Him in our lives. That is the only way we will have the great life that we yearn for.
• I plan to live in the Dave Ramsey plan for the entire year. I want to see how much Dave and I can accomplish when it comes to organizing our finances and reducing our debt in one year.
• I plan to start training to run in the Race for the Cure 5K on May 8th, 2011 in honor of Bethany. This event takes place on Mother's Day, so I feel since I would have been a mother by then, I should do something else to honor the fact I am not. I think this is an excellent goal to help me get in better shape and lose the weight I need to lose.
• I plan to eat healthier. I want a support system again in order to do this. I loved when I took classes at my Nutritionist's office. I was so proud to be able to coach people on this lifestyle. But, now, I am out of control and need to get on track. I have even applied to work there part time. I am praying that they hire me - that would be so awesome! I plan to take their 12 week course on Nutrition 4 Weight Loss.
• I plan to finally take the photography course(s) that I have been so interested in forever. I plan to get my fancy pants camera. This is so important to me. I want to take great, beautiful, quality portraits of my family and friends. These memories will last forever.
• Last, but not least, I plan to be a better wife. It is almost our one year wedding anniversary and I believe Dave has put up with more in this first year than any husband should have to in a lifetime. I want to turn my life around and by making myself healthier and happier I believe I will be a better wife to the best husband I've ever had.

So, apparently losing Bethany has opened my eyes to being a better person. I've realized that for a while. And now, I can actually put some new practices in place to prove it. Thanks be to God!!!

Happy New Year! I know 2011 is going to be GREAT!

And, here's to a new me...